Back on track

Somedays it feels like something
throws us off
and that it takes
a huge efforts to
get back on track
and
return
to peace.

Yet
it was only a reality check
a test
to remind us
that we have overcome
that something
and
we need not
look back.

May you recognize those things that you have surpassed and carry on.

Namasté,
Shobhana

Out of my comfort zone

Two weeks ago my beloved laptop did not start
no advance warning, nothing.

At first I thought it was the battery that needed replacing
so I did not give it much thought
no stress…

But, once I got the call from the repair shop
that it was a faulty motherboard
my heart started racing.

My laptop is my work tool
my writer’s journal
and my research buddy.

To think of being without it for more than a couple of days
sent me into questioning my inner peace.

Can I do this without freaking out?

Do I really have it in me to surrender
and find other options?

The option of NO computer for editing photos
for a few weeks, was NOT an option
as I was in the middle of a client’s project.

The option of having to write by hand…
well, was indeed an option.

I used to write by hand with fountain pen
and LOVED it,
but that was many years ago.

Now, I wanted agility and speed
and the fact that I wanted to continue
posting here
something that writing by hand
would not accomplish.

After an entire day of frustration
I took my own advice
FIND ANOTHER WAY.

So with a bit of resistance
I started using my son’s desktop
downloading an online editing program.

He offered his computer to me
the second I told him that mine
was not working.

I initially had resisted and rejected his kind offer
saying that mine will be fine in a couple of days.

Eventually, I let go of that resistance.

For my writing was another story
I need to move and sit in different places
so I found out very limited sitting at a desk,
at this point
I asked my nephew to borrow his old laptop
and armed with a NON-MAC laptop (yes, I am a MAC user)
I sat to learn how to use it
and adjust to writing online.

Now, I’m happy to say that I rose to the challenge
of being totally OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE
and appreciate even more the value of
letting go.

May you always find a peaceful way to embrace being OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE.

Namasté,
Shobhana




A day of silence – How much I resisted it!

Today ended up being a day of silence.
Woke up to NO internet
No one to connect with
No planned appointments
thus CERO socializing.

I was so restless this morning.
Even though I had a lovely walk,
which I always enjoy
surprisingly with new eyes.

The rest was full of restlessness.

What if
What that?
What this?

On and on and on…

Then
with the forced silence
came uncertainty
I can always get busy with the internet.
NOT TODAY!

Major internet failure that lasted ALL day!

Started writing
but
could not focus.
Then
some photo editing
round one,
got some work done but…
still restless.

So,
figuring out I could not win
I went off to do something else all together.

I’m not a cook,
but somehow
baking
helps me forget the chatter
and focus on the task
so,
it was off to make
Banana Bread.

I had been saving some bananas
from our trees
and they were ripe and ready
to be used.

The moment I started
I could feel
the anxiety and restlessness
dissolve.

It was magic one more time.

Baking to the rescue.

A good 40 minutes went by
as I can be slow at getting things ready.
By the time the
Banana Bread was in the oven,
my restlessness had quieted down.

So…

With writing in my heart
I sat at the computer
and dictated the beginning of my short story
just to get me going
without the desire to overcorrect or edit.

After a couple of hours
my mind was peaceful
and
writing was free flowing
with the entire day
dedicated to what I loved
my resistance disappeared
and my silent self emerged.

May you always find ways our of your resistance towards silence.

Namasté,
Shobhana

STORM MODE

Sometimes it feels a little tough
to remain centered
and
in the present.

When things like
the car won’t start
the washing machine died completely
I have to get prescription eyeglasses urgently
happen ALL AT ONCE
being in the present
becomes a bit more challenging.

This is when I enter STORM MODE

Year ago when sailing in the open ocean
we were caught in a heavy storm
for 5 whole days
it may not seem like a long time
but
when you are in a small sailboat
with only another person
about 200 miles from land
and
have NO way out
it can seem like forever.

This is when I discovered STORM MODE
in my life.

Suddenly I became hyper aware of the present.

What happened a second ago
no longer existed
and was going to happen next
was not there yet
so
by the magic and grace of the Universe
I became
absolutely PRESENT.

The storm gave me the gift
of being in the present
and allowed me to let go
of everything
that was not.

I now call it my STORM MODE
when I feel overwhelmed
by whatever it is that got me there
I go into STORM MODE
recalling
the small boat rocking and rolling
waves splashing hard onto the deck
my cocoon birth in the saloon
where I stayed tucked in tight reading a book
and
being in the present.

It felt as if time was suspended
but
I found my silence
and peace
with what was.

So STORM MODE it is.

I choose to find silence
inner peace
and be here!

Life sometimes can throw to us
small and big things
that pull the rug from under us.

Those are the times when STORM MODE
comes into play.

May you always find refuge in your own STORM MODE and revel in the present.

Namasté,
Shobhana

Letting Go – An act of courage.

Letting go
IS
an act of courage.

At times
we find ourselves
trying to control everything in our surroundings
from the exact ingredients
that MUST go in a recipe
to how papers are arranged on a desk
or
an unnecessary order
of how certain things
NEED to be done.

Demanding
from those around us
to follow exactly
as we say.

Our children
partners
work mates
and friends
may find themselves feeling SUFFOCATED
by this behavior.

Rushing others unnecessarily
pushing for things that are irrelevant
to be done OUR WAY
is a sign of restlessness.

When we find ourselves
in these situations
it is time to STOP
and return to the present
and surrender to what is.

To LET GO is an ACT OF COURAGE.

To LET GO requires
that we LOOK within
to find that SOMETHING
that feels UNATTAINABLE
or an UNFULFILLED desire
that is CAUSING our
RESTLESNESS
and
FRUSTRATION
that
is MANIFESTING
as CONTROL.

To LET GO means TO BE PRESENT.

May you always choose the road often less travelled and choose COURAGE over CONTROL.

Namasté,
Shobhana

Prioritizing meditation…

Often,
we find ourselves waking up early morning with many thoughts in mind,
Priority list of things to do in hand.
What to accomplish?
How to spend the day?
How to be more efficient, more productive…

We let our thoughts
drown our inner wisdom.
We let our thoughts
take over
and
we forget
THAT, which frees our time
and
guides us to be
who we need to be
at every particular moment.

Prioritizing meditation
should be
on top of our LIST.

Meditating,
quieting our minds
silencing the thoughts
IS
that
which brings us back
to
being
US.

Returning to our
INNER WISDOM
is crucial
when the noise has taken over.

It is the path to our true being.

MEDITATION
allows us
to regain perspective
to be in the PRESENT
to breath kindness
and respect
for ourselves
and
for all beings.

May you find your way to prioritizing meditation as a way to begin each day.

Namasté,
Shobhana


Non-stop noise

There are times when the mind hijacks any and all peace
creating non-stop noise.

Last night was one of those times.
It started with thoughts of
What am I doing with my life?
Why am I not writing regularly?
Why am I taking time out to write instead of making $?
Why do I keep procrastinating with my writing course?
and on and on and on it went
and
it continued throughout this morning
until finally
by talking it out with a my writing buddy
I was able to recognize
the restlessness
and
the reason behind it
and was able to let the thoughts go.

Now,
with a quieter mind
I can think
and
I can get back on track.

I feel that all the noise
sprung from an unexpected
quarantine.

I had a lot of plans and activities
feeling back in my groove
and
boom! …
The Universe changed the plans…

We’ll see what this quarantine time brings
and
let’s hope
that inner quiet prevails.

May you find a way out of your noisy mind should you find yourself caught up in it.

Namasté,
Shobhana

Making amends

Sometimes we put too much emphasis
on situations of the past
giving them power
and
bringing them back to life.

True that past situations
give us insights into our own lives
behaviors
and
reactions
yet
sometimes we hold on for dear life
to be hurt
wounded
offended
and
we recreate these situations
in our minds
and
in conversations
over and over again.

Making amends with what was
looking at it from a different point of view
and dropping the judgement
of how
we let it affect us
is healing
and liberating.

Our hearts are FREE
to go on with the present
and with the gift of life
that we have everyday.

We make SPACE in our minds
and spirit
to listen to
What is it that we really want?
What is that we really need?
and
What is it that we are needing to adjust in our lives?

What is OUR lesson…

May you find yourself in a place of releasing all that has passed, having made amends, and enjoying the present.

Namasté,
Shobhana

The stories are UNIVERSAL…

This blog
is permeated
with everyday thoughts
and
experiences about MY life.

In essence
these experiences
are not truly mine
they are a mirror of some of our
Earthly/ Universal experiences.

With this blog,
I hope to bring
lightness
sweetness
peace
and release
from perhaps painful circumstances.

With either the identification to a particular reality
or with some energy that inspires something within you.

If, in some way
your life has been touched
by these words
and you feel inclined to share them
I honor your journey
and
I’m truly honored
that you took your time
your precious time
to scan these words
and perhaps
feel them as your own.

For we are ALL a grain of sand in this fantastic ocean.

Namasté,
Shobhana